31 March 2007

(Go) Green Light...

I can see your eyes from here,
I can't see anything in between.
Theres nothing but green lights from here,
nothing but open roads.
- Tom Vek / Nothing But Green Lights

Red Light...

Untitled, BD 2003 [REVISION]

Road Rage

Some days what gets on my nerves about other drivers is how they stare you down as if any moment rays will shoot out of their eyes and blow you into a million pieces.

I mean really, what's the point in the staring? It just makes people look funny, the way fish looks when it swims up to the side of the bowl to look at you. Plus, aren't you meant to keep your eyes on the road?

Nice Things About B: Love Notes

He puts smiles in my heart.
Every day.

30 March 2007

I Was Considering Our Waves, The Stages Of Lapping Tides, Currents And This Is A Big Word...

The undulant landscape looks serene in every direction. - Frances Mayes


Untitled, Uncredited

Will Or Way...

While the rain comes down,
I'll make some noise.
When you're watching me,
I'll make some noise.
Far across the distance:
in the darkness, of the mind.
Soaked in sound,
until there is nothing,
left to find.

29 March 2007

Никто не дает ебать даже прислушаться к тому, как я сидеть...

Acts 4:12, BD 2007 [REVISION]

What's Lost...

Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved... - Acts 4:12

Get With The Times...

Factory Goes With The Disc, Peter Saville

A Moment So Moving Goes Straight To Your Heart, A Condition Thats Never Been Met...

If I'm sad and lonely, I'm sorry for making a scene. I tell you the things I can't say, why does everything have to be this way? I don't want to lose the things I can't win. Chase me round the bend. It's something in my head... Who said I should let those words go? If theres things inside I can't show. There's no-one but you who should know.

28 March 2007

I See The Light In The Shade Of The Morning Sun...

Singles, Peter Saville 2006

2 Tens...

Top Ten Albums
(No compilations)

001. Pink Floyd / Dark Side of the Moon
002. ¡Forward, Russia! / Give Me A Wall
003. Joy Division / Substance
004. Sigur Ros / Takk...
005. The Young Knives / Voices of Animals & Men
006. Talking Heads / Remain in Light
007. Editors / The Back Room
008. Oasis / Definitely Maybe
009. Ian Brown / The Greatest
010. Coldplay / Parachutes

Top Ten Songs
(That don't feature on your Top Ten Albums)

001. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club / Heart and Soul
002. The Music / Human
003. Interpol / Untitled
004. The Black Angels / The Sniper at the Gates of Heaven
005. The Stone Roses / I Wanna Be Adored
006. Trespassers William / Vapour Trail
007. The Cooper Template Clause / Lets Kill Music
008. Joy Division / Isolation
009. Explosions in the Sky / Your Hand in Mine
010. The Dears / Hate then Love

I know I keep trying to do this and I'll probably disagree with it tomorrow but everyone should have that 'desert island' question nailed...

Primary Shade...

First Impressions, BD 2007

27 March 2007

Our Father

Thank you for the beautiful spring weather
that we are enjoying today.
Surely, all of creation sings your praises.
We ask for you to be with us during
our time together today, and that you
would bless each family represented here.
Please guide us as we continue to work together
to have a positive impact on our local and
global communities,
opening the doors and hearts
that need to be opened according to your will.
Lord keep our hearts soft with compassion,
and our spirits generous,
even with those that may seem undeserving,
and keep your hand on us that we may be safe from harm.
Help us remember each day that all we have comes from you.
All these things we pray in Jesus’ name.

Twelve Lines...

001. I'm so glad I found this, I'm so glad I did. - Editors / Munich

002. I fell deep through the holes in your eyes. - The Dears / I Fell Deep

003. You know how everything grows. You know, this feeling is love... - Delays / One Night Away

004. Like vines, we intertwined... - The Hush Sound / We Intertwined

005. ...in every moment, you are beautiful... - Tunng / Light

006. ...in me, you reach everywhere, your fingerprints are everywhere, we are illuminated now... - Vega 4 / A Billion Tons Of Light

007. ...I called you a Golden Gaze, you brought me better days... - Ian Brown / Golden Gaze

008. You are the light, into my soul, you're everything, you calm the storms, you give me warmth, you stole my heart and you take my breath away. - Lifehouse / Everything

009. My arms miss you, my hands miss you... - The Long Winters / Ultimatum

010. If you should ever fall you know I would kiss you better, I kept the letters you sent me... - Maxïmo Park / Kiss You Better

011. (If you don't know.) You hold my heart and soul... - Black Rebel Motorcycle Club / Heart And Soul

012. Theres nothing like you and I, I dream of our our future ever time I hold your hand tightly... - The Perishers / You And I


Untitled, Uncreditied

26 March 2007

This Is Your Disguise, You Better Believe It, No-one Will Grieve For It...

Increasingly, scientists doubt the truth of evolution.

No evidence suggests that evolution is losing adherents. Pick up any issue of a peer-reviewed biological journal, and you will find articles that support and extend evolutionary studies or that embrace evolution as a fundamental concept.

Conversely, serious scientific publications disputing evolution are all but nonexistent. Creationists retort that a closed-minded scientific community rejects their evidence. Some anti-evolution authors have published papers in serious journals. Those papers, however, rarely attack evolution directly or advance creationist arguments; at best, they identify certain evolutionary problems as unsolved and difficult (which no one disputes). In short, creationists are not giving the scientific world good reason to take them seriously.

25 March 2007

My Little Miss Sunshine...

Little Miss Sunshine

JT: stop annoying me

Waiting (Continued)...

Sometimes its easy and sometimes its hard.

24 March 2007

Ebbing Tide Or Azure Sky...

Untitled, BD 2006

23 March 2007

Parasitic Or Sympathetic...

When things get me down. There were a few words said to me, the same ones I got the last time I was here. Now my time has come, I must go. There was no-one I wanted to see here, please come and get me, take me home.

22 March 2007

Warming: Tips...

B13 Box Bólide 10, Hélio Oiticica 1964

21 March 2007


One can look at seeing; one can not hear hearing... - Marcel Duchamp

Warming: Licks...

B02 Box Bólide 02 Platónico, Hélio Oiticica 1963

I Was Abstract In Mind, That Decision Was Mine...

The disagreements among even evolutionary biologists show how little solid science supports evolution.

Evolutionary biologists passionately debate diverse topics: how speciation happens, the rates of evolutionary change, the ancestral relationships of birds and dinosaurs, whether Neanderthals were a species apart from modern humans and much more. These disputes are like those found in all other branches of science. Acceptance of evolution as a factual occurrence and a guiding principle is nonetheless universal in biology.

Warming: Bases...

B01 Box Bólide 01 Cartesiano, Hélio Oiticica 1963

20 March 2007

The Stiller The Oxygen The Harder You Breathe...

The further away I get from you.
The harder it gets,
for everyone else.
The happier I am when I'm with you.
The harder it gets,
when I am alone.
The harder I try to,
learn something from you.
Further away.
The further away I feel,
the simpler the answer,
the harder it can get.
Further away, dazed and misunderstood.

Version 2...

Version 2, BD 2006

19 March 2007


You're my muse, you're my silly goose and every day is a dreamy day of daydreaming of you. You're my one, you're my honey-bun and every day is a dreamy day of daydreaming of you.

I can dream of you without snoring and I'm lucky, that that's true; because everyone would know, that I found them boring, simply because, they're not you. All I want to do is lay in the daisies and daydream of, you know who I'm referring to... you.

You're my love, you're my star above And everyday is a dreamy day of daydreaming of you.
- Of Montreal / Everyday Is A Dreamy Day Of Daydreaming Of You

4 ÷ 5 = ...

Royally Exorbitant Demonstration, BD 2007 [REVISION]

18 March 2007

I Get A Chance To Write When She Ignores Me For Hours...

I don't show you I love you...

I love your skin on my skin, when we are lying like water - calm and blue, together with such ease like lamplight in daytime June - the walls never knew. You whisper, be honest to me - do I drag you down, I can reply life without you would be lonely and in flames. But I whisper back, you don't slow me down. Everything with you is something to me, thoughts of you are like stars in the dark. Cling to me, like you did at the arch. You don't slow me down...

...half as much as I should.

17 March 2007


Glucose, BD 2006

16 March 2007

Just Rewards...

JT made a very blunt hand gesture at me for my dancing...

Leaves: Left Un-Right...

O1O, BD 2006

She brings out my best and helps me make something of my worst...


I was drinking coffee darker than eclipsed light...

Or Just, I'm Going...

Ex 1, BD 2007

Moderation Or Consideration...

Stars enclosed in glasses like to disappear, as if, they were carved in the pulse of my arteries - those ones that won't stop beating. I guess that's because reason is clocked in, at some unbelievable speed the connection with a mechanoid diversification.

It still needs electricity to feel light in here, we knew long before we flicked the switch.

15 March 2007


Untitled, BD 2002

Have You Seen How He Jokes And Smiles, Yet Sleeps Like A Child...

Nobody has ever seen a new species evolve.

Speciation is probably fairly rare and in many cases might take centuries. Furthermore, recognising a new species during a formative stage can be difficult, because biologists sometimes disagree about how best to define a species. The most widely used definition, Mayr's Concept, recognises a species as a distinct community of reproductively isolated populations: sets of organisms that normally do not or cannot breed outside their community. In practice, this standard can be difficult to apply to organisms isolated by distance or terrain or to plants (and, of course, fossils don't breed). Biologists therefore usually use organisms physical and behavioral traits as clues to their species membership.

Nevertheless, the scientific literature does contain reports of apparent speciation events in plants, insects and worms. In most of these experiments, researchers subjected organisms to various types of selection for anatomical differences, mating behaviors, habitat preferences and other traits finding that they had created populations of organisms that did not breed with outsiders.

14 March 2007

Five Hundred Times A Day...

Untitled, BD 2006

13 March 2007

This Boy Has Got Wind And I Don't Think It's Funny...

Natural selection is based on circular reasoning: the fittest are those who survive, and those who survive are deemed fittest.

Survival of the fittest is a somewhat conversational way to describe the process of natural selection, but a more technical description speaks of differential rates of survival and reproduction. That is, rather than labeling species as more or less fit, one can describe how many offspring they are likely to leave under given circumstances.

The key is that adaptive fitness can be defined without reference to survival.


Untitled, BD 2007

Even ...in the broad light of day... she still shines brightest in a world made mostly of light.

12 March 2007

Human Or Humanity...

If it's all so coldly logical, without a weight of any eyes tear - were those intentions, masking indifference? A tolerance problem, built up over the years?

Since nothing was televised, was that to conceal the motive?

Leaving the people waiting for ease, till a cancer like this grows, replacing hope with another social disease. There were some stranger atrocities commited in the silence, why cry now, not this time, it was in another world, they felt it, like it was close, significant, somehow.

Shattered nerves, spines, provoking those to serve, the reason lost its way in the streets of a fear of all those here, the interness of hate...where?

Are You Suggesting Coconuts Migrate...

King Arthur: Old woman.
Dennis: Man.
King Arthur: Man, sorry. What knight lives in that castle over there?
Dennis: I'm 37.
King Arthur: What?
Dennis: I'm 37. I'm not old.
King Arthur: Well I can't just call you 'man'.
Dennis: Well you could say 'Dennis'.
King Arthur: I didn't know you were called Dennis.
Dennis: You didn't bother to find out did you?
King Arthur: I did say sorry about the "old woman", but from behind you looked...
Dennis: What I object to is you automatically treat me like an inferior.
King Arthur: Well I am king.
Dennis: Oh, king eh? Very nice. And how'd you get that, eh? By exploiting the workers. By hanging on to outdated imperialist dogma which perpetuates the economic and social differences in our society.
King Arthur: I am your king.
Woman: I didn't vote for you.
King Arthur: You don't vote for kings.
Woman: Well how'd you become king then?
King Arthur: The Lady of the Lake, her arm clad in the purest shimmering samite held aloft Excalibur from the bosom of the water, signifying by divine providence that I, Arthur, was to carry Excalibur. THAT is why I am your king...
Dennis: Listen, strange women lyin' in ponds distributin' swords is no basis for a system of government. Supreme executive power derives from a mandate from the masses, not from some farcical aquatic ceremony.

11 March 2007

Adequate Or Enough I'm Going...

Serves One To 'Ate, BD 2007

I'm No Liberal, Honest...

I can't afford to save your life,
stand up for policy, it's in black and white.
Double dream through, manuscripts,
bleed the words as dark as the night.
The weather may be falling down,
just go home- put on a raincoat to protect you,
from this cold.

Everyone is a cascade of older generations.
No-one has a halo, long since swapped,
for a scape goat
and the false feeling of hope.

Caucasian Or Poor Asian..

Untitled, Uncredited

10 March 2007

Leave That Life In My Hands...

People ask, ...what did you expect to find? Thats not what I care to answer. I linger in our memories, I pray to repeat them. I remember the words we've said, I never want to fall away without this life in my hands. I'll take it close when it's cutting me till I'm bleeding, like I'll gloat as the light glows out of it...

Summer Or Winter...

They All Fall, BD 2007 [REPRODUCTION]

09 March 2007

I Just Looked At Her Today (Continued Further)...

...and I saw half of myself. My partner, in love and life and business and spirit. She is beautiful, seeing her still warms me - gives me that fuzzy edge.

My Heart Sings, Bury Me Darling, It's Like Mystic Energy, Coming Over Me...

The Second Law of Thermodynamics says that systems must become more disordered over time. Living cells therefore could not have evolved from inanimate chemicals, and multi-cellular life could not have evolved from protozoa.

This argument derives from a misunderstanding of the Second Law. If it were valid, mineral crystals and snowflakes would also be impossible, because they, too, are complex structures that form spontaneously from disordered parts.

The Second Law actually states that the total entropy of a closed system (one that no energy or matter leaves or enters) cannot decrease. Entropy is a physical concept often casually described as disorder, but it differs significantly from the conversational use of the word.

More importantly, however, the Second Law permits parts of a system to decrease in entropy as long as other parts experience an offsetting increase. Our planet as a whole can grow more complex because the sun pours heat and light onto it, and the greater entropy associated with the sun's nuclear fusion more than re-balances the scales. Simple organisms can fuel their rise toward complexity by consuming other forms of life and nonliving materials.

Warmth: Warming My Inside Pouring Like Syrup...

Amber Rising, BD 2007 [REVISION]

What to write...

B is off on wordy serious tangent lately.. Me I can't really think what to write about. I've been so busy, but thankfully, no longer crazy. Time is ticking away, not so long ago it was painfully slow, and now it whirrs by. B and I will reunited June 15th. Just 14 weeks away.. It feels like everything is on hold. I don't want to buy anything, paint anything or really make any changes at all until he's here to share it. I've had two surgeries in the last three months so I don't really go out unless necessary so that I can recover. I'm on a diet with a target of losing thirty pounds by the time we meet.. 5 down already. I have this odd feeling of being in stasis.. Sometimes I wonder if anyone is reading this blog at all anymore. We used to have some lively reparte but sometimes it feels like the words just disappear into nothing after I hit publish. It feels like eons since I've taken a photo or written a poem. Any ideas?

08 March 2007

Who Listens Anyway (Continued)...

Quotations, Woodcock 2006


Buy use break fix crash change mail upgrade charge point zoom press snap work quick erase write get paste save load check rewrite plug play burn rip drag drop zip unzip lock fill find view join surf scoll doze click cross crack update switch name tune rid print scan send fax rename touch bin pay turn leave watch stop format it...

07 March 2007


The cold wind was moving in from afar - death in the park, another senseless murder, the body mutilated, red skies calling, the inserts were deep inside, with a warm glow from the feet up - this could be hell. Twelve noon lined up against the wall - about face, load and fire. Ten shots echo, in a 'faraway' African town. The CIA report will say, no cause to worry - everything is under control. Money for this, money for that, money for nothing. I guess they died some time ago. Walking on water - as likely as Moses crossing the Red Sea or world peace left intact?

Hand in hand they disappear into the night...

Evolutionary Marvel Or Curse of Satan

If You Know What This Is You've Been Around the Block Once Too Many Times, Stolen Out of an Article About Carl Zimmer, March 2007

En Rire De Peur D'être Obligée D'En Pleurer...

What do you really know about his strength or conviction? Do you really think - he made out down the road to nowhere and lost all purpose in the rush to get there?

With a face pressed flat against the glass window, one could see two in a room for one. A view of zero censorship, a place where there was no isolation only detoxification.

06 March 2007

Mind The Gap...

Even second to that feels like last...


(She Is My) Soothing, BD 2006 [REVISION]

05 March 2007

Live For The Reason, It's Sure To Amaze...

If humans descended from monkeys, why are there still monkeys?

This surprisingly common argument reflects several levels of ignorance about evolution. The first mistake is that evolution does not teach that humans descended from monkeys; it states that both have a common ancestor.

And Now Time For Something Completely Different (Again)...

Ready For Senior Pictures, NatalieDee.com 2007

Hallowed Be Thy Name

You are the one whose perfect plan threads
Every part of creation together.
Thank you for everything you've give to us,
Healthy children, money for necessities plus,
A good house, a steady job, healthy bodies and minds.
Thank you for the dreams you've placed in our hearts,
Thank you for the boy, the house, and the business.
Lord let each step we take, be in line with your plan,
Whether it is known or unknown.
Father forgive us for the anger, the resentment, the envy,
And help us to forgive each other, every time.
Remind us always that though the cracks will appear,
You can fill them, even when we despair over them.
In this year of the open door Lord, show us when
The doors we bang on are not meant to open, and
When the door we never tried hides the riches.
In our darkest of hours, whisper into our hearts
The hope of this life and the next,
And ever resuscitate our spirits when they tire.
Lord we dedicate all we do to you,
And all these things we pray in the name Jesus.

04 March 2007

The Power Is On...

Egg Of Magic Light, Uncredited 2007

You Have Got To Be The Last One Standing...

Merging the lanes, like work yesterday. Wrong directions? The traffic won't know. It's so slow and thoughtless. Wheels are still, on the concrete and green lights - no. The barrier stands between our hands. You said 'you need me', you said 'you mean', if it was a bad decision where was the mistake? Fatal without recognition, or even any consequence, how will I know, I never even seen it coming...

03 March 2007

I Overheard Two People Talking About Movies...

02.11.2007, Kris 2007

...I haven't seen World Trade Centre yet, don't tell me...

My Heart Holds, One Wish, That You Never Go...

Celebrating the days gone by, bringing us closer - even when the love hurts. Twenty four seven, reminded we're on the way to heaven... Stroking your hair, in the morning. Washing my face, heading to work, after that alarm with no warning.

02 March 2007

Arriving Somewhere But Not Here...

Permit, Uncredited

Just For A Moment...

I could pause, stop what I'm doing. Clear my head. Block the sounds, of the noise and the distortions. Reach a peaceful stateful mind, without meaning suffers no attention.

Enter the thoughts, in the calm - I can't forget about her. They say, everyone wants a little something (good). I don't want to feel what everyone feels, I've found myself something far more appealing. They'd see if they were in my shoes, I've found myself something I don't want to lose. She is my little something...

01 March 2007

Petals: Reds...

Untitled, Uncredited 2006



Driving, to work, every, day. Standing, looking left, looking right like the rules of the road state. Why feel so alone? The empire is calling. Yellow yellow was her hair, orange sunburst red glare. After time with you I've come to realise I'm not the nicest guy, but I give-give-give, to you, dear. You know my thoughts, you put them there. What will you do? Who do you turn to? You wonder how hot it could get, but I've already felt it. Did you kill the less as I was giving my second guess? The things I saw I saw inside, healed my eye. Green is the colour of the ground, the icy grey was the stare. He closes up his fists and can see as if his demons exist. Open up that box. The prophets of today, discarded, along with the poems and the agents of political campaigns. You came in alone, will you leave on your own?